norway right back

it's been a while since i wrote something, cause life was too busy to keep me going on here. my man and me got a real bad fight and some hard troubles, which ended up the way we both left the flat... he moved out back to his own and me i decided to leave the country and to go back to norway. the trouble we had is easy to discribe and hard to take. noah and me got an argue whereas he decided to go out and fu** just someone right ahead. he wanted to become the asshole he thought i saw in him... i never did, but obvously made him feel that way. as he returned the morning after he made a confession telling me about that night and how hard he tried to hurt me and to forget about me. since we're together there've been only few rules between us, but one for sure and with no doubt... you can fu** the world or me, but whenever you decide for the others, i'm gone. therefore as i already mentioned i went off the flat, into the flight back to nowhere...
about two weeks later we met again. as i left he asked me not to come back untill i am sure what i want and that i want him. so at this point i shouldn't have been going back at all, because i wasn't sure at all. i only felt like things might get some clearer if we meet and talk and of course i missed him like hell. that day we met was crazy and horrorful and exhausting. noah behaved like a little child or he started to get beasty and bashy and mean. it happened he changed his point of view 3 times in 30 minutes, which really didn't make me any surere abour anything. i couldn't handle that and decided to leave right back the day after. the night i was at his ranch in the rockies i decided to tell him how unsatisfied i was with his reaction and how upset. i told him what i was hoping for and at least the few thing i expected. i pointed out that i am not willing to live along that way anymore and whether he feels like he made something wrong and starts right ahead changing that damn shit situation or he doesn't, but me myself i'm going to leave the next day and he better decides what to do soon, otherwise he wouldn't need to decide anything nomore according to us...
that made him some calmer, he spent the night in my arms while i layed awake for he decided to fly my back to seattle for getting my flight to oslo from there. i didn't deny and so he took the chesna and brought me back with the words: "i'm coming with you." he finally decided to do something to apologize truly and to convince me that he's serious in what he says. so made some calles, took his backpack and we went to norway.
we arrived yesterday evening, which was great. the weather here is beautiful, warm and with some midnight-sun. we got theses "white nights", so the sun doesn't set by night and it's great to see that noah loves the nature around and the place i am living right now. the place i grew up. i was a bit afraid he might not like it or change his mind, but he had already handed his job over to his younger brother levi and let his phone at home, for he didn't want to be disturbed. noah told me it's up to me how long we're supposed to stay in norway, for he didn't plan anything when to go back. he decided that i am his priority and that he learned he doesn't want to live without me no more. i'm curious how long he keeps that in mind and i'm going to try out how serious he is. i love to hear that, but still i don't trust him that much.
a few days ago i planned not to come to the USA at all, because there was no more reason. but now i feel like maybe i am going back somehow, when i feel it's fine for noah and me. i don't want him to kick his job... not for me, not for us. i know how much it means to him and that he loves doing it, but it's great to see that it's not the job telling when we meet and talk and spend time, but it's up to me to decide when i am ready to except something that important next to me. i'm curious what's going to happen when we're back and daily life got us back, too. if he still sets his priorities the way he does now. i guess, i'll find out.